thoughts paint the sky

It might hold true that thoughts are the shadows of our feelings, however, always darker, empty and more simple. The 'thoughts' section will provide you with a selection of ideas, cogitations and elaborations of issues of everyday life. The purpose is to lead you into your own thoughts and enable you to render judgement of what your thoughts are on the issues at hand.

The thought of being alone and spending my life all on my own in solitude, did somehow not appear as desirable any more. Having spent the last months in the company of those people with all their specialities and traits of character seemed like a good way to pass through life and maybe also having to adapt to people in order to fit in. 'Fitting in', I never thought that this would ever be something desirable that I wanted to achieve. I guess I had learnt more than it seemed during the time here in Belton House. Having company and finding my place in this unusual group of people suited me and had not only changed many aspects of my life, however, also had changed me as a person in different ways. I was actually looking forward to talking to people rather than wanting to get away after dinner to be in my own and pursue my eremite life. I had gone through, ever since I left this little cottage and come to live in Belton. Initially, I was supposed to be the one teaching and had somehow ended up being the one having learned most. This house that we all lived in, seemed to have some kind of special magic, bringing people together, healing souls and creating an atmosphere of familiarity and mutual responsiveness. We all brought our own different histories to this place and still were able to meet in consensus or maybe this way exactly the reason why we were able to learn from each other, as our differences showed us how valuable we are to each other, and helping everyone to overcome our personal battles.

When you love someone, you start seeing yourself with different eyes. You get to know yourself in a new way, discover novel facets of your character. Loving a person brings out the best in us, things that you never knew you were capable of. You find the strength to overcome obstacles that you were not able to overcome until then. You surpass yourself, surprise yourself, find the new you of which you never knew could be inside. That, I can say for myself. And yes, I am in love.